September 3, 2010
There’s really a lot we’ve been wanting to & meaning to update you on! And we WILL get there.
We were so excited to get this new blog & our new website up & running, & while we were working on that, we were also overjoyed to find out that we were pregnant too! It’s been almost a month now since we found out that we’d be having a son! Christie and I were and still are very excited of the thought of our little boy scampering about.
A little over a week ago Christie found out due to signs of potential pre-mature labor that she would have to be on bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy. This was a tough blow considering we have almost 4 months to go. If you know Christie, she is very much a “do-er.” She loves serving people, she loves cooking, she loves going to meet with people, she’s a busy bee, it’s just who she is. A big part of our lives is doing life together, at home, outside, at church. There was definitely some hurt and discouragement as we entered this new season. This past Tuesday at our follow up doctors appointment another surprise came up. Christie would need to be admitted to the hospital that day for a closer watch and monitoring…for the next month.
Despite the news from last week & this week, we have experienced a greater peace and a deep sense of joy that could only be attributed to God. A well known pastor wrote in one of his books how we like to setup safety nets just in case God doesn’t come through and we still call it genuine faith. Well, we’re at the point where there’s no safety nets. We are in complete dependence with no control over any of this and we’re ok with it. We’re ok if we end up losing this child, we’re ok if the child is born with disabilities, and we’re ok if he’s a healthy baby boy. That’s not to say that there won’t be hurt, that there won’t be sadness, because there will be, but with a sovereign and faithful God there is a peace that surpasses all understanding.
As contradictory as it sounds, there is joy, there is hope, there is peace, and there is freedom in dependence.